• Mark Villani


Updated: Feb 18, 2020

I run because sometimes I feel sad. Lately there hasn’t been a lot of days where I can look in the mirror and feel like “today is going to be a good day” I rack my brain for positive thoughts, I feel my head pulsing for answers and I have none. My neurons are firing as the electrical signals inside compute a million messages at once — all with one general consensus. “I feel stuck.”

I’m 25-years-old and for the first time in my life I don’t know what exactly to do next. No... I haven’t committed some crazy crime and I’m not running away from the police... Although in a way... I am “running” from my feelings of depression and isolation. I’m not OK right now.. but I know I will be OK... if that makes any sense? It’s because each day I take time for myself to do one thing I absolutely love. I love the feeling of lacing up my shoes, going for a slow and steady recovery run, or cranking up the music in my ears to get motivated for an afternoon of painful interval sprints. Running is where I feel most free. It’s where I can let go of the stress, the anger, criticism, deadlines, loneliness and all the distractions of every day life. Sometimes I feel broken emotionally after a long day. Naturally most people might opt to shut their eyes and go to bed, but I find some weird joy of “breaking down” my body even more by pounding the pavement. At the same time, I know I can’t just take care of my physical health. My mental health is far more important and I’ve made positive changes in my life to take care of that. Each morning I meditate to calm myself down. I talk to my friends and my family when I’m feeling stuck. I’ve also been seeing a therapist for almost a couple years now. I eat a healthy diet and make sure to stay hydrated throughout the day. I prioritize my schedule and try to think positively when things don’t go right. I can pat myself on the back for doing all these things, but inevitably the feelings of sadness and frustration still linger. It seems like they’ll be there no matter how hard I try or how fast I run. So what do you do? You look for inspiration. I reached out to some of my closest friends and members of the running community to ask why they run. Here is their “why."

It’s funny how life works. There’s ebbs and flows of the good and the bad and honestly I wouldn’t want it any other way. Unfortunately, you can’t enjoy every single day of your life... but you can always try. It’s the challenges in life that define us and sometimes the only thing to do is to adapt and change. Running has changed my life and I’ll continue to log miles no matter what type of mood I’m in. After all, this blog is called Mark in “Motion” — so naturally I’ll keep going and I’ll never give up.


Week 27 - 42.9 miles (69.041 km)

Week 28 - 45.0 miles (72.42 km)

Total distance to date - 1,103.08 miles (1,775.235 km)

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